Sunday, 19 January 2020

Day 1069


Aka Thursday 2nd January 2020

And it’s back to work today, after having New Year’s Day off, and things were relatively quiet, which was helpful as I still felt a bit off with the Jager bombs on Tuesday evening…and there were no New Comic Book Day comics to pick up today, what with it being the New Year and all, but I did do today’s G2 Crossword:


…which went a tad worse than yesterdays. I had to cheat on a third of the clues again (eight out of 23). Like Monday’s grid it was really hard to get started, on my first pass I only got a couple of answers that I was happy with. Although at one of the clues was a little misleading, ‘high-ranking army officer (5,3)’ should have had a ‘(slang)’ to let you know that it wasn’t an actual rank, but a slang term that was the answer. And I missed some obvious answers, like ‘fact’ for ‘actuality’ and that ‘collective’ means ‘done by people acting together’, but I did learn that ‘celerity’ means ‘speed’, that ‘echt’ means ‘genuine – honest’ and that a ‘florin’ was an ‘old two-bob bit’.

Day 1068


Aka Wednesday 1st January 2020

To harness the energy of New Year’s and to get an idea of what lies ahead I did a Tarot reading and this is what I got:


…which I read as: 

CARD
MEANING
MY READING
In a general context, the Six of Cups reversed can signify letting go of the past and being ready to move on to the future. It can be an indicator of growing up, becoming more mature or leaving home. It can also indicate letting go of childhood issues or childishness. The Six of Cups reversed can indicate childhood abuse or stolen innocence. This Minor Arcana card reversed in a Tarot reading can also indicate overcoming such abuse so look to the supporting cards for clarification. If you have been going through counselling or therapy, the Six of Cups reversed can be a good omen, signalling that you have worked through the issues of the past and are ready for a fresh start. Alternately, the Six of Cups reversed can indicate that you are stuck in the past or looking at past events through rose tinted glasses, if that’s the case you need to bring your focus back to the present moment and appreciate what you have today. 
My plan for the next year is to manage my finances better, to pay off a credit card and, by year’s end, to start applying for jobs at a higher grade. So, this fits well as my present position – I’m letting go of my past frivolity and acting more responsibly. It also reflects on my overarching plan to get back into the civil service within the next four years, but maybe I’m planning this as I see my past work in the civil service with “rose tinted glasses” and maybe I shouldn’t limit myself this way and should concentrate on the opportunities my present position allows me.
Queen of Cups
In a general context, the Queen of Cups Tarot card can generally signify a woman or women in your life who will be supportive and caring towards you. This Minor Arcana card is also a sign that you should be mindful of how you treat yourself and others or to treat people with compassion and sympathy. She can also indicate that you may be more sensitive than you let on to the outside world and that harsh actions or hurtful comments affect you more than you show to the outside world. This card can also indicate a tendency to daydream and a big imagination. As a person, the Queen of Cups represents a mature female or feminine person who is kind, caring and supportive. The Queen of Cups is a sentimental, sensitive soul and a good listener. She is empathetic to the feelings of others. As a mother, partner or friend, the Queen of Cups is affectionate, loving and warm. However, she can also be shy and have a tendency to daydream. She is creative, artistic and intuitive and she appreciates beauty. She may be a water sign such as Cancer, Scorpio or Pisces
This card represents my immediate influence – the nature of the influences or the obstacles that lie ahead. And I’m unsure how to read this one (aside form that it’s always good to be “mindful of how you treat yourself and others or to treat people with compassion and sympathy”). Does it represent a woman who will be helpful (a current boss or future boss? A relative? A friend?). Maybe it’s a reference to my tendency to daydream, and maybe I should be careful not to get lost in daydreams? Or maybe it means that I should dream big and I will achieve the dream with the help of a “mature or feminine person”?
Five of Cups
How many negative emotions can one card represent? Quite a few in the case of the Five of Cups! In a general context, the Five of Cups Tarot card can represent sadness, loss, loneliness and despair. When this card appears it indicates that you are focusing on the negative. This may be the result of some sort of trauma or unwelcome change you have suffered. As such, this card can signify heartbreak, divorce or separation. The Five of Cups also tends to appear if you have suffered a recent bereavement as it represents mourning and grief. It is a card of emotional baggage and instability and can signify that you feel deep remorse, regret, anger, sorrow or disappointment. It is also the Minor Arcana card of abandonment and can either represent you being abandoned by someone significant to you or you abandoning plans or people in your life. It can also indicate loneliness or isolation. However, for all the negative connotations this card can bring there is a positive message underneath it all. The figure depicted in the card is crying over the spilt cups and seems to be oblivious to the fact that two cups are still upright. This is reminding you that no matter how bad things may seem there is always a silver lining, you just have to choose to see it.
From the first reading it feels a bit gutting to get this as my goal or destiny card, but on further thought maybe it represents my goal of moving to a higher grade (the “separation” and “abandoning plans or people in your life”) or that I’m letting myself focus on (or worry too much about) negatives, rather than focusing on the positives? Maybe it just represents the feelings of loss when you do leave one job for another (e.g. remorse and regret) and that I need to acknowledge them, but also to acknowledge that they are part and parcel of changing jobs?
The Magician (r)
When The Magician reversed Tarot card appears in a Tarot reading it is a sign that you will need to be careful not to miss the opportunities coming your way. Don’t allow self-doubt to stop you from seizing the moment. If it refers to a person, The Magician reversed can mean that a person in your life who presents themselves as knowledgeable and trustworthy may actually be trying to use you or manipulate you. Watch out for deceitful and greedy people and be careful who you trust with this Major Arcana card in reverse!
This card represents my distant past foundation – which are the broad and basic events and influences which existed in the past and upon which the present events are based. And I think that it represents my weariness to grab the opportunities and chances that had come my way in the past, that I need to change that approach to things and to seize the moment when it occurs.
Eight of Swords (r)
In a general context, the Eight of Swords can represent feeling trapped, confined, restricted or backed into a corner or having your hands tied. It signifies fear, terror, anxiety and psychological issues. It is a Minor Arcana card of hopelessness, helplessness, powerlessness, slavery, persecution and being silenced or censored.  You will be feeling the pressure when this appears and may be in crisis or going through a dilemma or drama. However, the overall theme of this card is that you are the one keeping yourself in this situation through negative thinking and allowing yourself to be paralysed by fear. The swords depicted in the card are surrounding you but you can take the blindfold off and walk away at any time! This card also represents consequences and judgement which may take the form of trial by jury, imprisonment and punishment.
This card represents recent past events – aka the most recent sphere of influence or events that have passed or are just passing. In my context I think that this represents being unemployed and the accompanying lack of funds (accounting for feeling trapped, confined, restricted or backed into a corner or having your hands tied. And my anxiety). But that has changed now that I’m a permanent member of staff. But I did to remember that I shouldn’t let myself be held back by negative thinking and allowing fear to control what I do.
Queen of Pentacles (r)
In a general Tarot spread, the Queen of Pentacles represents a lack of social status, poverty, failure, dependence and being out of control. This Minor Arcana card tells warns you that if you do not keep your feet on the ground you could lose everything you value. She signifies a lack of common sense or an impractical, dangerous or chaotic approach to life. As a person, the Queen of Pentacles reversed can represent a mature female or feminine person who is mean-spirited and materialistic and who can be spoiled, shallow and pretentious. She can be possessive, jealous, envious or a social climber or in her extreme state, a manipulative sociopath who will step on anyone to get what she wants. She can simply represent a woman who is unpleasant to be around, disorganised, lazy, bad with money or boring. On the other hand, when reversed this woman can appear charming and pleasant but beneath her charm there is a sinister undertone of disloyalty, evilness, wickedness, chaos and danger. The Queen of Pentacles can represent a cheating woman or a prostitute. She can be a neglectful or abusive mother and a bad cook or a careless hostess. She may be an Earth sign such as Taurus, Virgo or Capricorn.
My future influence, which I’m reading as telling me to not to daydream to much, to keep my feet on the ground and to take a practical approach to things. It may also represent my current job, which is relatively low on the totem pole.
Four of Pentacles (r)
In a general context, the Four of Pentacles reversed Tarot card can indicate that you are ready to let go of people, possessions, situations or past issues. You may be releasing toxic people or situations that are no longer healthy for you, shedding old issues or letting go of regrets or fears. You may also be feeling generous and sharing your wealth or possessions by giving to others. Be careful not to go to the extreme in this aspect and allow others to take advantage of you. This Minor Arcana card can indicate that you may have let go of or lost something valuable through theft or gambling or it can be an indication that you are out of control or are engaging in reckless behaviour. However, the Four of Pentacles reversed can also indicate that you having stopped trying to control people or situations and are approaching things with a more relaxed and open attitude. Look to the surrounding cards for clarification.
This is the questioner care, representing my present position or attitude, which is that I’m ready (or if not ready that I should be doing this) to let go of past issues and letting go of regrets and fears, and that I should take a more relaxed and open attitude to things.
Six of Pentacles
In a general context, the Six of Pentacles Tarot card represents gifts, kindness and generosity. Someone in your life may be very generous towards you with gifts or money or simply generous with their time, knowledge or wisdom. Alternately, you may have so much wealth and prosperity that you are the one in a position to help others. This Minor Arcana card can indicate sharing, support, charity or donations. As such, if you are in a difficult situation at the moment, this card can indicate that there is help available and that someone will assist or support you if you reach out. You may be feeling a strong sense of community spirit or compelled to help those around you when it appears in your Tarot spread. It is also a card of power and control so you may find yourself in a position of authority or being well-respected by others when it appears in your Tarot reading. The Six of Pentacles is usually a positive card to get as it can signify equality and fairness and can also symbolise being well paid, being valued or being rewarded for hard work. If you are prospering when it appears, remember to share your good fortune with those around you!
Environmental factors, my influence on other people and my position in life. Which I’m not sure how to read, except maybe that I should be sharing and supportive of other people and that I should except help from others when needed/it is offered.
Page of Swords
In a general context, the Page of Swords represents delayed news, ideas, planning and inspiration. It can also signify being protective, guarded and vigilant. This Minor Arcana card may be telling you to be patient, to think before you speak and not to get drawn in unnecessary arguments or conflicts. It can also represent fairness, speaking out and fighting injustice. The Page of Swords can indicate mental agility, learning or getting an education, being quick-witted, curious and inquisitive and using your head. This card can signify being chatty, communicative, truthful and direct. However, it can also signify being blunt or abrasive or engaging in petty gossip. As a person, the Page of Swords represents a young person, child or person who is young at heart, who is chatty, lively, quick thinking, analytical, logical and cool and possesses a sharp mind. This person abhors injustice and is a deep thinker but at the same time can come across as blunt, insensitive or a bit of a loner sometimes. In the negative, they can also be a bit of a gossip or deceitful but they do not intentionally cause harm. They like to stick to the rules and may be an air sign such as Aquarius, Gemini or Libra. ​
My inner emotions, inner hopes, hidden emotions and secret desires, fears and anxieties. I think it relates to my plan to go up a grade (or two) by the end of the year and that I may be being too protective and guarded of myself. And it’s always good to be patient, to think before you speak and not to get drawn in unnecessary arguments or conflicts.
Ten of Swords
In a general context, the Ten of Swords is not a good omen as it can represent backstabbing betrayal, badmouthing, bitching behind your back, bitterness and enemies. It is a Minor Arcana card of failure, ruin, collapse, severing ties, goodbyes and the final nail in the coffin of a relationship or situation. It can signify nervous breakdowns, chronic fatigue, exhaustion and being unable to cope. It can also represent hitting rock bottom, hitting a wall or being in a dead end situation. The Ten of Swords can also indicate someone playing the victim or martyr, being overly dramatic, attention seeking or exaggerating. It can also signify violence, attacks and curses.
The final results, the culmination and results of all the influences revealed by the other cards. And again, from the first reading it feels a bit gutting to get this, as it can represent backstabbing betrayal, badmouthing, bitching behind your back, bitterness and enemies. But it can also represent goodbyes and the final nail in the coffin of a relationship or situation, which I’m choosing to read as my succeeding in moving up a grade (or two), but that I did to be mindful that things may not work out as I hope and that it may take a while longer to get what I want.

…so overall, I think it means that I need to let go of past frivolity, past issues and regrets and act more responsibly, be mindful of how I treat others, that I shouldn’t get lost in daydreams or negative thinking, but that I should keep my feet on the ground, be patient and to take a practical approach to things and grab the opportunities and chances that had come my way and to seize the moment when it occurs. That I should be sharing and supportive of other people and that I should except help from others when needed/it is offered. That I may achieve my goal of getting a new job at a higher grade, but that it will bring some sadness as I leave one team for another. And that things may not work out as I hope and that it may take a while longer to get what I want.

…I also did today’s G2 Crossword:


…which went well, I only had to cheat on a seventh of the clues (three out of 21). Although my little grey cells had forgotten that a ‘financial plan’ is called a ‘budget’ and that ‘rein’ means to ‘hold back’, but we did learn that ‘Defoe’ is ‘Robinson Crusoe’s creator, d.1731’.